Sep 25, 2023

Dear me, I am ready to quit smoking because I am tired of searching for outside things to fill up that NP void inside whether it’s bottom whether it’s a relationship problem whether it’s a financial problem, I realize that I don’t have to slowly kill myself and make myself smell bad just to get 10 minutes of relief. I realize that if something happens to me, I will not only suffer but I will make my family suffer by having to come visit me in the hospital and watch me die and today I don’t need that, so I am ready to search within myself to find the answers. I can’t change the world, but maybe I can change myself in such a way so I can deal with the world.