I have been trying to figure out why I started to smoke in the first place. It was tv shows back then that showed the people smoking and cigarette ads on the tv. Seing many adults smoke including family members from parents to grand parents and aunts and uncles. It seemed like the thing to do then. Parents asking you to go light them a cigarette….to go get their cigarettes. So here I am trying to figure out what it would be like to be smoke free since I was about 8 years old. I don’t recall what it is like. I struggle with the thought of quitting and then seem to smoke even more. I know that I would like to be free of them and just don’t seem to love myself enough to be able to quit. I know that I need help with this. The big question……Can I do it and make it forever?