Remember 4 years ago when my grandson asked for a Christmas present.? I asked him what that was, and unselfishly he said he wanted me to quit smoking. I promised I would. Four years later I now have COPD and am still smoking. Everytime he sees me he asks me the same question. I feel so guilty. I am trying to quit. It is not easy but I swear that by this Christmas I will finally keep my promise to him. I love my grandchildren and want to be around for a long time.